I'm Back!

Alright, I know I have been gone for awhile. I found that blogging every single day is just not for me. This actually makes me a little sad, considering that for the longest time during my teenage years I really wanted to be a writer. I even had one of my college professors tell me that she thought I really had the ability to pursue writing. But I honestly don't lead a very interesting life so finding something to talk about every single day was not easy. Unless of course you want to read my bitching and ranting of my work life. 

However, I am going to try to get back into the swing of things with blogging and my weight loss journey. So here it is, my Monday weigh-in blog...

I have lost a total of 8 pounds! I am really excited about this because I am almost to 10 lbs and I have NEVER been able to stick to a diet plan long enough to reach this milestone even though it seems like a small one. I am determined to be down 10 lbs by next Monday! 

I had started an exercise routine a couple of weeks ago but last week I came down with a vicious cold so my exercising fell to the side. But I am feeling good and coming back strong this week. I am going to make that treadmill my bitch! 

On another note, I am starting an American Sign Language class on Wednesday! I am so incredibly excited! And to keep the good news coming, my parents will be closing on their new house later this week which means I am moving soon! 

Well I am off for now, worked all day so I am relaxing while catching up on Melissa and Joey (yay for finally showing the latest season on Netflix)! 

Current Weight: 189

Starting Weight: 197

Daily Points: 27

Too Many Choices

Anyone else have the problem of opening their refrigerator and just having way too many options to choose from? That is what I am dealing with and because of all the choices nothing seems all that appetizing. My mind and taste buds cannot agree on anything at the moment. 

The one thing they can agree on at the moment is the my latest dessert decision. Instead of going with my usual WW English Toffee Ice Cream bars, I decided on the WW Latte Ice Cream bars. They are 2 pp as opposed to 3 pp from the first dessert selection. I really like them! My all time favorite Ben & Jerry's ice cream is the Coffee Heath Bar Crunch. I love coffee ice cream and the latte bars are a fantastic alternative! 

When I take a look at my points for the day I always mentally deduct 2 pp so that I can enjoy a cool treat at night before bed. 

Catching up on PLL and then heading to bed. Another long day of work tomorrow!

Happy, healthy eating!

Weigh In!

So today was the second Monday for my weigh ins. Unfortunately I did not lose any pounds. Thankfully I didn't gain any either! I've decided to see this positively considering I ate fried chicken strips and 2 heaping plates of spaghetti last weekend. But I am using this lack of weight loss to keep myself motivated! I have definitely upped my water intake, which was actually my challenge for last week but I didn't do so well. But after doing some research I have decided that Crystal Lite can count as my water intake. Usually I have about 24 oz of water in a day. Sometimes less. Today alone I have gotten to 40 oz of water. Thanks to Crystal Lite! Now I am going to relax a little before an early bed time because I need to be up before the sun!

Happy, healthy eating!

FOOD FOOD FOOD!!

Ok, if you are ANYTHING like me then you loooove cheeseburgers. Seriously if there was any food I could eat and there would be absolutely no negative repercussions in doing so it would be cheeseburgers. And pizza. I am also a person who loves instant gratification. That's why I never really got into the habit of cooking. I really don't care for all the prep work that goes into making a meal. A drive through was the easiest way. But I always feel bad afterwards. I don't ever feel satisfied eating a greasy, unhealthy meal no matter how much I enjoy the taste. I would lay in bed at night and start panicking that I was going to have a heartattack. So why did I keep doing it? Habit? Punishment? Absolute hatred for my body and never believing I could ever change it? All of the above.

So I have been trying to figure out the best ways to enjoy the food I love and still be healthy and within my Weight Watchers points. Way easier said then done. However, I think I have discovered the best way to stick to healthier eating! At least for me that is. The secret is this: A well stocked kitchen keeps you from giving in to temptation! Ok, I know it doesn't roll off the tongue very smoothly but you get it, right? Right! So today my mother and I went grocery shopping to Costco and the local supermarket. Don't hate on me for being 25 and having my mother buy groceries for me. We all eat the food, I just make sure what she is buying is something I can eat and not over do it.

And I have found the best alternative to fast food cheeseburgers. Costco has awesome options in the frozen food section. They have all kinds of frozen burgers with bun and all, full size and slider size. They also have frozen hamburger patties. But all of these choices have high pints and it's just not worth it to me. Until I found the Kangaroo brand cheeseburgers! They are little individual wrapped half cheesburgers in pitas. They are soooooo good! I had one for lunch with a little bit of ketchup and a side of low fat cottage cheese and a pickle. I was happy and satisfied and I DO NOT FEEL GUILTY! Of course we got a ton of other things like more veggies and fruits so I can have zero points snacks and not feel hungry and have the urge to go overboard with my meals, which is always possible even with the foods you buy at the store.

I know I mentioned in a previous blog about not feeling guilty for giving in to temptations occasionally. And you shouldn't. Sometimes you just need a little something bad. Just keep it to the barest minimum and don't make an ugly habit out of it again. I'm hoping that I will reach the point that I will feel bad even thinking about eating out when I have a very well stocked kitchen full of better choices. But I promise to keep it honest when I do slip a bit and hope that all of you will help keep me going.

Happy, healthy eating!

Family

I love my family. I wouldn't feel like a complete person without them. But sometimes living with them can be quite tricky.

My mother has a wicked sweet tooth. Her favorite late night snack is a bowl of chocolate ice cream and pound cake. But she also loves cheesecake (my personal favorite dessert), key lime pie, apple pie, cheese danishes etc. There is always something in the house. And it sucks! It's not like I can't eat it, I just know that it's not a healthy way to use up points. Especially when I am trying to get into a good rhythm with my eating habits.

Thankfully I am discovering all kinds of tasty things to satisfy my own sweet tooth. As I mentioned before my favorite is the WW English Toffee Crunch bar! I have yet to try other ice cream delights from weight watchers but I will be. I'll keep you all updates on what makes a delicious and still point savvy treat!

Goodnight!

Wagon

So that's what the back of the wagon looks like...

Just having one of those days. Ate chicken strips from KFC and then enjoyed a delicious bowl of spaghetti. And I have tracked my points at all today. It happens. Life happens. Shit happens. Work happens. In my case work and shit happening are synonymous. I truly dislike my job. And I know that instead complaining constantly I should just get a new job. However, I know how easy it is to transfer stores with the company I work for and that's exactly what I intend to do when the time comes and the money is saved for me to leave. So I am really just trying to suck it up and get through. I work with some fairly decent people and there are some that I look forward to seeing because I know they will make my shifts bearable. I just need to keep thinking positively. That used to come naturally to me. My smiles used to be genuine, my laughs legit. Now I can tell that happiness does not reflect from my eyes and my laugh is just a little forced. Maybe positive thinking should be one of my challenges.

On an actual positive note, a good friend of mine and I were discussing being weight loss buddies! He is going to look into some gyms for us to join. Thinking we can go when we get out of work at night. Or maybe before work because working 9 hours and then going to the gym for at least an hour at eleven at night does not sound great, considering the new house we are moving into is a half hour from town. He and I will discuss it further later.

As for tomorrow, it will be better. I will get back on track with tracking. Pretty soon here I will definitely need to get a exercise routine in if I want to make any real differences in my weight.

Goodnight!

Only Me

Everyday I learn some kind of lesson. And everyday it becomes more and more obvious that the only person I can count on is myself. But sometimes that's a hard realization. It's true though. Only I can lose the weight, only I can save money, only I can get myself out of here. I can't blame anyone around me for my failings and I won't praise anyone for my successes. If I want to give up then the only person I can hate is myself. And I am done feeling that way. I am putting myself first from now. I am not going to cry when someone tells me I can't do it. I am not going to be angry when someone tries to pull me back. I am going to fight to keep moving forward and when I get to the top, wherever and whenever that may be, I will thank no one but myself, for finally being able to show all of them that they were wrong.

"Who honors those we love for the very life we live? Who sends monsters to kill us, and at the same time sings that we will never die? Who teaches us what's real and how to laugh at lies? Who decides why we live and what we'll die to defend? Who chains us? And who holds the key that can set us free... It's you. You have all the weapons you need. Now fight!" -Sucker Punch